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Almost half way through the semester...doing okay. Still passing all my classes, that is with grades C+ or higher. Congrats me. These past few days have been especially hard. Not only am I struggling with school, but work and my personal life is all up in the air. I had my tarrot read yesterday...it was really good. somethings in it were wonderful. odd enough, many things in it were up to speed on my life. Now I don't really believe in it, just becuase I make it seem like the reading si accurate becuase I look for things in my life that match what the person/cards are saying...but it is still fun. I want to go get my palm read, but the only problem is I dunno where I can get it read at here in Poky... maybe in Salt Lake. That would be fun. Gonna do it. Went to Charley's. So much fun. It was nice to just get out and be care free for a little bit. Although, it was nice just to go home afterwards. I hope to go more often, make some friends. haha in need of friends lately. Also, IN...

Yes. It is true. I am now single. It is heartbreaking to think about. Jeffrey and I are no longer together. Not a second goes by that I am not thinking about it, or thinking about what used to be Us. Obsessive? I don't think so. It is more a memory that can't escape. I am trying to be okay with it all. Not happening all the well. I used to be so happy. What happened? Not sure. Everything was wonderful for such a long time, and we just fell out of love. More on his part, than mine. I still feel love towards him. Even slightly romantic love, but the favor is not returned. It's hard to still wake up with him in the same place as me and know that we won't be. Friends is what we are. Friends is what we'll be. Maybe the future holds more, maybe less. Only time will tell.

dear people without a life so you must follow mine, i am not dead, i promise. just super busy and it does not help that the device i use to create a gateway into my life has been broken for a month or so. but alas the laptop is fixed and the entertaining can resume. yes resume NOT résumé, there is a slight difference. so many things have happened and it is absolutely ridiculous that i have not mentioned anything of the sort. where to begin? i dunno even know where i left off...pause for reading previous blogs...ah yes, ended with something happy. well the truth shall be uncovered. just wait, this is going to be a special edition of jacob and jeffrey, revealed. yessum, there are sometimes that i tell myself my life is a tv show, or in this case a newcast where the reporter has found some ground breaking news about something that everyone only sees the surgace... example? Nah, too lazy to come up with one. okay, for the last month, let's see, what has gone wrong? let's ask the op...