Hitting On You So Creepily.
Turning over yet another leaf tonight.
I seem to be one of those people that allows their hopes
to get up in all situations of life. School, work, Like,
social interaction, finances. And what good has it done?
Not a whole lot. I usually set myself up to fail,
especially when it comes to, well everything. Ha ha,
brilliant comment eh?
I don't think I will ever be able to control whatever
is going on inside this head of mine. I let my thoughts
get carried away and I start believing what they say to
me. Most of the time it is all made up twitterpatedness
but when it is not the happiness it is often exactly the
opposite, which tends to get me into trouble.
The goal for this week is to just go with the flow. Stop
allowing myself to feel things that potentially are not
there. If they are there, then I will give myself 14
points.. for what, not exactly sure, but I will have 14
points somewhere. The idea is not to act upon any
unintentional act, thought or remark, regardless of
sobriety.
As for school, I have to stay focused. Only 3 weeks left
and summer will be here. It will be easier on the dating
field and easier on the sanity field. Although summer
does mean DRAMATIC cut in hours at work. And in turn
will add to the stress of finding the money for rent.
Well rent for the apartment I am hoping to get in June.
(Again thank you Evan)
Side note: I have one of the coolest friends! Marina.
Met her on facebook almost a year ago. She basically
flat out asked me in a message if I was a Homo. And
we have been talking since. It is wonderful to have a
person that does not live here in Pocatello that I can
tell everything to. An outside voice. Someone who is
completely unbias. Hurray for pen pals.
Also thank you for the talk tonight. As hard as it is
on both of us, it was nice to be able to tell you my
thoughts and feelings on situations.
I seem to be one of those people that allows their hopes
to get up in all situations of life. School, work, Like,
social interaction, finances. And what good has it done?
Not a whole lot. I usually set myself up to fail,
especially when it comes to, well everything. Ha ha,
brilliant comment eh?
I don't think I will ever be able to control whatever
is going on inside this head of mine. I let my thoughts
get carried away and I start believing what they say to
me. Most of the time it is all made up twitterpatedness
but when it is not the happiness it is often exactly the
opposite, which tends to get me into trouble.
The goal for this week is to just go with the flow. Stop
allowing myself to feel things that potentially are not
there. If they are there, then I will give myself 14
points.. for what, not exactly sure, but I will have 14
points somewhere. The idea is not to act upon any
unintentional act, thought or remark, regardless of
sobriety.
As for school, I have to stay focused. Only 3 weeks left
and summer will be here. It will be easier on the dating
field and easier on the sanity field. Although summer
does mean DRAMATIC cut in hours at work. And in turn
will add to the stress of finding the money for rent.
Well rent for the apartment I am hoping to get in June.
(Again thank you Evan)
Side note: I have one of the coolest friends! Marina.
Met her on facebook almost a year ago. She basically
flat out asked me in a message if I was a Homo. And
we have been talking since. It is wonderful to have a
person that does not live here in Pocatello that I can
tell everything to. An outside voice. Someone who is
completely unbias. Hurray for pen pals.
Also thank you for the talk tonight. As hard as it is
on both of us, it was nice to be able to tell you my
thoughts and feelings on situations.
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