What Are You? A Fricken' Martian?
The stream of human emotion is flowing again. So much is going through my mind that I cannot focus on the things I SHOULD be focusing on. All I can think of is a song sung by Michael Buble, "That's All." I absolutely adore that song. I am wanting to be in Like with someone right now so badly. I hear all these lovely songs about love, and the like, and I am jealous that I am not at the stage of life right now.
The love of my life, lives in a different state. And ther really isn't much I can do about it. I have come to my senses. For a while there I almost picked up and moved to Tucson, selling all my stuff and quitting my jobs. Dropping out if college didn't seem like a bad idea. I was more than ready to get a plane ticket and just leave. All my clothes were already packed. Pricing plane tickets was the main focus. Why did I change my mind? Well I was talking with a good friend of mine and telling him all about it and he made me think really hard about it. He told me to list all the reason why I wanted to go...
1. The man I love lives there.
2. I miss Tobias.
3. One of the best Masters programs is offered in Tucson.
4. The man I love lives there.
As much as I love Him and Tobias, I cannot just drop out of school. It would be completely illogical and practically irresponsible. Follow your heart people say, but what if following my heart cripples my career? I can't let that happen. I am already this far into my degree, I can't just give up. And it hurts so much to have to stay in control of my life and keep myself in Pocatello until I get my Bachelors degree. My chat was a great one. It helped me realize that I must stick with my life plan, and when I graduate from ISU, I can and will chase after Him.
How long can Love last? Love that is not emotionally and physically fed, will it last long enough for me to graduate? Or will it crumble like a cake without eggs?
I am not even sure where I am going with this blog. Everything is all over the place and I have no clue what is going to happen. My life could change in a heartbeat. There is so much on my mind that I cannot even create a post with a single complete thought. Point of this entry is to basically get out what I have been keeping inside since He text and called me and told me he still loved me.
The love of my life, lives in a different state. And ther really isn't much I can do about it. I have come to my senses. For a while there I almost picked up and moved to Tucson, selling all my stuff and quitting my jobs. Dropping out if college didn't seem like a bad idea. I was more than ready to get a plane ticket and just leave. All my clothes were already packed. Pricing plane tickets was the main focus. Why did I change my mind? Well I was talking with a good friend of mine and telling him all about it and he made me think really hard about it. He told me to list all the reason why I wanted to go...
1. The man I love lives there.
2. I miss Tobias.
3. One of the best Masters programs is offered in Tucson.
4. The man I love lives there.
As much as I love Him and Tobias, I cannot just drop out of school. It would be completely illogical and practically irresponsible. Follow your heart people say, but what if following my heart cripples my career? I can't let that happen. I am already this far into my degree, I can't just give up. And it hurts so much to have to stay in control of my life and keep myself in Pocatello until I get my Bachelors degree. My chat was a great one. It helped me realize that I must stick with my life plan, and when I graduate from ISU, I can and will chase after Him.
How long can Love last? Love that is not emotionally and physically fed, will it last long enough for me to graduate? Or will it crumble like a cake without eggs?
I am not even sure where I am going with this blog. Everything is all over the place and I have no clue what is going to happen. My life could change in a heartbeat. There is so much on my mind that I cannot even create a post with a single complete thought. Point of this entry is to basically get out what I have been keeping inside since He text and called me and told me he still loved me.
Yeah for love! Happy that you thought throw a plan. Bad you are away from love. But good you are still here for me. Did you know that your blog actually steps of the screen? I find this slightly disturbing and wonder if you wouldn't mind speaking to it about that. I need it to stay on the page. Yeah. ANyway HUGS!
ReplyDeleteexcellent image there... crumble like cake without eggs.
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