I Rub My Lips When I'm Stressed.

I am filled with the greatest amount of rage. 

Not the kind of rage one gets when drinking massive amounts of alcohol 

and listening to some kind of krunk music. 

Rather the rage one feels as they are ready to slash

tires, key a vehicle, throw bricks through windows, dump sugar in 

gas tanks, or waterballoon cars with paint thinner.

(I am proud to say, I did not do any of the above tasks)

I do believe I should say that I do not have any kind 

of personality disorder, or cognitive impairment. I am not 

Bipolar. I am not in a depression. Nor am I sick in any way.

Just thought I would clear that up. It may appear 

that I am a tad bit unstable based on my frequent extreme

happy and enthusiastic posts followed by extreme sad 

and dark posts. I am just an avid blogger and share

everything, regardless of degree of crazy :)

Anyway, back to raging. I feel the urge to be destructive.

To break everything and anything that comes in my path.

I used to write an angry letter. Fill pages of why I am 

upset. Scribble violently. Dark lines. Pressing so hard

it would rip the page. Then take that angry letter full of

hatred and fury to someplace high up and windy. 

I'd rip up the letter into as many pieces as I could.

Scream. Let all the negativity out. Scream so long and loud

that I would get a headache. Scream until every emotion

was out. And then watch the wind carry it away. Watch

as the wind would take every angry sentence. Every pissed off 

thought. Every stormy word and phrase. Gone. 

Tonight, was different. It didn't work. My anger/frustration/rage,

whatever you wanna call it, still lingers with me. 

I don't want it. 

I've never been so furious. Ever. 

How do you get rid of your rage? Tips please?

Until Next Time.