You'll Be Stinky After Zumba.

How is it that a person can just make an appearance and I can completely collapse?

All those months of building myself up and being strong have been wasted.

I am back to where I started and it is frustrating.

I allowed myself to be seen. Vulnerably seen only to be shut out again.

I thought I could handle it. Just focus on all the previous hurt and I should be fine.

But the second the door opens, all my walls of defense fall down and I turn into a child.

Sometimes I really dislike my ability to completely turn off my feelings.

(Yes I know I say I can do it, but I really can't)

It's a very mad world we live in. One day I will understand.




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